While many of you can address this year was just as bad as last year, maybe even worse, believe me when I say I had an extra difficult time than pretty much everyone here.

Aside from keeping off the grid last Fall, I was at a slight approach of suicidal thoughts as a breaking point, but I still know what I to do. I need to keep going in life because I may miss out on something important in the long run...

"I know what I have to do now. I've got to keep breathing because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring."
-Chuck Noland (From Cast Away)

I appreciate the people who connect online that still have my back. Thank you for supporting my mental health at notable points of the year and letting me express my feelings toward the community. Let's just hope next year is better than both past years combined.

It comes and it goes, but it got pretty bad earlier this month, to where I kind of just shut down completely for a few weeks. Missed a lot of work because of it. The state of the world certainly does not help things. Speaking of that, I got a cold recently, so now I am trying to go through the process of getting tested just so I can see my doctor about it.

Sometimes a break is all you need. I get that way with some sites, though I am generally mostly very introverted to begin with. Good to know that it helped!

Thanks! It's hard to believe it's been so long.

It's genuine. I've had some pretty tough times as of late as well, so I understand that sometimes it's good to have someone to talk too.

I've never been on the discord, but I can't imagine that they would get this worked up over a hobby like this. But people will always be critical of something on the internet. Distancing yourself from it is definitely a good idea, considering how easy it is to get absorbed by all the negativity.

I can only speak from my experience, but I hope it helps in some way.

Hope you're doing alright

Uh, hi...

I unsuspectedly vanished about a month ago because I was unsure if I really wanted to be in my settled spots within the internet, while there was a decent amount of people this year so far pushing me, at that point, over the edge. And combining this with the current stress in the real world, I felt like tuning out of this grid - I wanted to live and work alone, away from everybody.

Over these past years. I wanted to be a fun, entertaining, and most importantly, inspirational person within my circles. But instead I have been given trash comments, or comments uncalled for in my angle. Basically, considering the handicap I have in life, I learn from nearly everybody around here for instructions, but I was proven wrong - I found out the internet was a giant game of broken telephone, thus. Making my inspired ideas go wrong and cause havoc for others and myself. More so the fact that I never try to get people going.

I was scared to move on, in fact, I'm a little scared to be back here. I have the assumption and fear that, considering the handful of Discord servers I was put off from, people here still have a grey alley impression of me. But I don't think so. I am learning from these mistakes, okay? People just don't understand me enough for me to be on here, which is more so the reason why I wanted this down time.

By the way, you can say I am taking it too seriously - A little hurt can be too much for me. I don't mind it. Because I have a tendency to look far back at these situations and feel like the damage is already done near forever, thus getting anxiety and stress even for the next time I see you guys. But I'm coming around to seeing some of you still like me. And thank you to the few whom I discovered that still back me up.

So if you're reading this, please give me a significantly positive comment in response. Because around that time last month my spirit for others has hit rock bottom. Though despite my extreme defensive condition, I still have a soft spot for a lot of things...

Again, I really love this site with my video game affinities. Which was the more reason why I discovered most of you and the site community. I believe last month was an extreme state of depression at the time, where I was assume I was going to stay like that forever or a very long time at the least. I will stick around my backloggery for the time being to see how I turn out on this recovery phase.

No, I've never heard of it. Seems pretty cool.

I'm fairly certain I've seen all of the events, so any excuse to play Yume Nikki again is welcome, in my book.

Early like always, but my Spook-tober theme is live.
Okay, maybe I was juggling too many theming shenanigans this month. It was a very stressful (And somewhat boring) past few months for me, to be honest.

Hopefully this skeleton will cheer everybody up (Or not):
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